oh great, i'm having suicidal thoughts into the night, nothing's greater than that. how can i go from overly secure to total insecure in 2 seconds? maybe i'm bipolar, but then again i don't think i am, and i also don't wanna be, u hear the worst stories about it not to mention it, i have no reason to be sooo it'd be a total waste of disease. hahaha

maybe i'm just lonely or needy in this moment, or maybe both, dunno, a feeling i don't know yet, empty. i should be able to take something serious by now;

the worst part is that i don't see me accomplish anything great in my life, because i just don't wanna this bad, tha worst part is that this doesn't upset me, what upsets me is that what i really want, like really is want something, maybe i'm just the perfect example of the modern human being, its a possibility.